When I was a teen attending a church singing, I realized that I was not feeling or seeing clearly whether or not I had ever asked Christ to come into my life. I felt very heavy hearted and without any premeditation (quite shocking) I got up from my seat and went forward during the invitation. I spoke to the preacher and he led me in asking Jesus to forgive me of my sins and to come into my heart and life. I felt an instant relief, like I had a weight lifted off my shoulders.

I wish I could say I did what I was supposed to do as a Christian. But I didn’t. In my young adult years I went into complete rebellion. I did the “club” scene, dated a lot, and just lived a life not pleasing to God at all. It took me years to realize that I wasn’t where I needed to be. About 10 years ago, I FINALLY gave up my own will and rededicated my life to Christ completely. Now I can see God in every decision I make. I’ve gone through a divorce and financial abandonment. People have been placed in my life and my children’s lives that have clearly been sent by God. I would have never been able to make it financially over this last year, but because I have put my complete trust in God and have followed His will, we made it. I should have been an emotional basket case by now with what this divorce has brought to me, but I have a tremendous peace that is ONLY from God. People around me say they can’t even tell I’m going through what I am… I say it’s because of the Lord. He can do anything as long as you keep Him in your heart and make His will your own. God has orchestrated everything from a sudden unexpected change in a judge at a hearing to laying it upon people’s hearts to make anonymous donations in some way towards my family. My children have suffered, but there is no doubt that if they were not both following Christ themselves they would not be as well adjusted and thriving like they are. I’ve seen firsthand what God can do. I see a clear difference in how this crisis has been handled WITH Christ as my Savior verses other crises when I was doing it on my own.